it is so irritating that she doesn’t replace the toilet roll that she used up!
once or twice maybe there wasn’t any available for replacement,
but can’t be every time right?
& it is even more irritating that she doesn’t put up the toilet seat after use!
bearbear chided me once for forgetting,
& even emphasized on the hygiene factors….
yet he has never reminded his sister.
wtf!
don’t tell me it is an awkward topic to bring up to his sister.
100910
i was so heartbroken.
given up hope on him.
if he has spared a thought for me,
he would have known how much inconvenience it is for me
that i can’t even get to iron clothes as & when i needed to.
how could he ‘ask’ in such a way that makes me feel that he’s belittling me?
on so many occasions he made me feel like an idiot,
or rather so many times,
he makes me feel that he thinks i’m an idiot.
& excuse me,
‘idiot’ is not even a crude word.
& so we started yet another argument.
i know it was not that big an issue,
but i have been tolerating so much nonsense from his family,
or rather his clan,
i just couldn’t take it anymore.
i do not want him to turn his back on them.
i do not need him to confront them.
at least not for now.
otherwise,
all that effort i put in & hardship i put up with
in order to maintain this ‘good’ mother- & daughter-in-law relationship
would all be wasted.
there is almost no way to remedy if it was ruined.
all i ask is that you defend yourself,
defend me,
even without me complaining to you….
you, as her son,
voicing out opinions
is so much different from me saying anything.
can’t you see that we are in vastly different positions?
090910
it is our anniversary.
but,
i do not have happy stuff to jot down.
sad?
getting used to it.
i had been,
& have seen several sisters
who are single when their siblings are attached.
but none has been as irritating,
or rather self-centred as she is.
she is in no position to chide my bearbear
for choosing not to spend time in her so-called family activities.
she has no life!
we, as a married couple
can absolutely choose to spend time alone,
without the few of you,
& the whole clan.
your life is all about
that ex-colleague who tried to take your position,
that ex-colleague who was dying & now recovering from cancer,
it is not even a good topic to discuss over meals,
& you have long quitted.
& that ‘friend’ who lies about her age,
i really don’t care about your views on her.
& so i can probably understand why you would like to participate,
or even organize ‘family activities’.
don’t expect me / us to entertain you.
we would like to spend time as a couple on
christmas eve, christmas, new year’s eve….
any other day without you.
you who keeps harping on ‘family’,
& broadcasting about politics from your ex-workplace(s).
even if someday you were to get yourself attached,
& your other half is an unromantic geek
who loves taking part in your family activities,
if you were still to organize,
then so be it.
i will still not wish to join!
especially if that freak who traumatized me is going to be there.
it is the most hypocritical child,
if ‘it’ could still be categorized as one.
it injured itself to get attention,
even knowing that i was there
watching him put up the act.
it knows they will be taken in.
i fear….
